Condemnation isn’t just a word, it grabs a hold of you if you are not fully armed with the word of God. You are incapable of facing it alone and I know because I’ve tried. I don’t do it on purpose just to see if I can, no it happens as soon as I feel that I let God down completely and I am unworthy of his forgiveness. It’s far from what God wants you to think though and the thoughts that come to mind are not that of your own, they are put into your mind to steer you further away from faith. When I find myself wandering further from my faith in God’s word, I can’t help but to feel lost and unsure of what I should I be doing. There’s nothing that really brings any sense of fulfillment, it’s only emptiness, a whole within waiting to be filled. There might be things that come your way every now and then, nothing but a distraction though it feels like it’s the right thing in that moment but sooner or later you know, that was not sent from God. You are left grappling with the decisions you make and the challenges it brought. When you find yourself in that moment, in your life, do not go to anyone who isn’t in that place to understand why your belief in God is so strong. I don’t mean that in a judging way, I simply state it because it takes someone to know completely where you are coming from and who has been there themselves personally to understand what it is you are truly saying.
Conviction from the Holy Spirit is healthy. You aren’t left feeling helpless and you sure aren’t there straying away further from God. The Holy Spirit has a way of putting a check in your heart, wanting to do better, wanting to be more obedient to God’s word and wanting to get closer to him. I know I slip from time to time but when I do, I feel such deep of repentance that I never felt when I was younger. Never did I ever even think I would come to that place in life. No I am not boasting for this is not of me but the work of God. It is only he who can bring something to pass, something that seems so impossible to us is possible with him. If you ever find yourself in a position where you make a mistake and it is tearing away at you, go to God. Pay no mind to the thoughts that are sent to make you feel like less of a person and pay no mind to the people who are blind to the truth of forgiveness.
I used to believe that being transparent made you weak and I often cared of what others might think of me or say. Somewhere down the line all that has changed and I am thankful to God for helping me to come out of that. Everyday isn’t easy though because unfortunately when we show more of ourselves, people often take advantage of it to use it against you. They know certain details that they have no problem bringing up in order to get a reaction out of you. When you are trying not to be confrontational, many don’t know how to deal with it. They’ll nitpick until they get a reaction from you, only to make it seem as if you’re the one with the problem. What am I talking about?
The downs of the relationship my sister and I have. We’ve lived together practically our whole lives, we both have our own strong views on certain things in life and if we feel strongly about something we don’t come to an understanding, we simply agree to disagree. I never thought that me and her would be dealing with this even at this age, it’s one thing when we were kids but now it drains us. Unfortunately though we see many times that in other families many wouldn’t hesitate to cut off all communication when something goes wrong. Although my sister and I face difficulties I’m thankful that we are able to sit down and hear each other out. It may not always be right away, sometimes it takes a few days but I know that it’s not always the right move to make. A lot can happen in one day and I don’t see how any one can take the chance of leaving things on a wrong note, as well as letting things affect us to the point of not wanting to speak. Sooner or later what we get all worked up for most times won’t even matter and if you catch yourself before letting it get too far, you’ll be lucky to realize sooner. Life isn’t meant to spent being angry, though we do have the right to feel disappointment at times it’s not healthy to continuously hold on to it and sometimes it’s not even worth holding on to it just to prove a point. As of now I don’t think I’ll ever come to hate anyone, hate is too much to hold on to and it only has a hurtful impact on you. I believe pride is unfortunate, to my surprise my sister admitted to me not so long ago that if it wasn’t for me speaking to her first, we wouldn’t talk for a longer period of time. I didn’t mention it to her but hearing that hurt me because in many of the cases she still believes I’m in the wrong which is why I say pride is unfortunate, it can cause someone to look past what’s important and let disagreements go further. Truth be told if it wasn’t for God, I believe I would be bitter at this point in my life, I would have no consideration for anyone else, I would be even more prideful than my sister at this point because that’s how it was when we were younger. Only God knows what I’d be like this very moment had he not stepped in and saved me from myself, as a matter of fact it scares me to even think about it. I know the possibilities of people hurting us are many but through it all, look to God. There is no one else who can fully heal you like he does, who can lead you every step of the way even when things seem impossible to get through. He makes a way where there is no way and as he is leading you, remember to trust him and don’t lean on your own understanding.
It was about two years ago I believe that my sister decided to join the business of It Works. Everything seemed fine at first, I was excited to see what changes it would bring for her, financially and health wise but it turned out to be completely different to what I expected.
I was always skeptical of it and that’s one of the things they mention about those that are hesitant of joining but eventually I did because I wanted to help my sister. I’m not a fan of how the people in the company work, now I don’t have full knowledge of how each person handles their business but so far it has left a bad taste in my mouth. I’ll be completely honest though, the only products I’m fine with using would be the greens, wraps and defining gel. I’ve seen results on my sister but we both know that it takes more than just products to not only have results but to actually keep them. Many times when someone introduces me to anything new when it comes to taking for my health, I automatically say no, first explain to me what the ingredients are and even then I’ll most likely still decline because we can be getting told one thing when in reality it’s another. This is not only towards It Works but any other company that offers similar products to lose weight. I think promoting healthy eating, healthy habits and exercise would be the first way to go but taking pills to block calories is just not for me. I know it might seem as if I’m completely trying to make the business look bad, I know it has perks to it and it is definitely a huge help to have income coming in. I only hope that the people choosing to sell it are really doing their research as to what they are putting in their bodies and also trying to convince others that they need. I was easily influenced at first with it being labeled as natural but I don’t believe all the products are as natural as they state they are.
My next point is to how some of the people go about it when they want to post on social media why they chose to join. Don’t get me wrong I know it helps with those who have no choice at the time but to work from home. What I don’t agree with is how they can state that someone who works a 9 to 5 job is unhappy, I know it’s possible but it’s not the same for everyone. It’s not because they are afraid to join, afraid of changes or don’t want to work hard or whatever other reasons they may have. Everyone has a purpose, it’s simply something they don’t want to do and it can’t be forced upon them. Many people are happy where they are at and being able to stay at home making money isn’t the ultimate goal in life. They put their trust in God in leading them to where they need to be, where he wants them to be, not what someone else is saying is best for them. Now why would God be brought into this blog you might ask. A while ago the woman who signed my sister up is a very ambitious person and I know she wants to work hard to support her family, which is why often she would ask my sister how is her business going, seeing as how that benefits her as well. My sister Nancy, has different priorities at the time and unfortunately the other distributor was upset and rather than being understanding she kept stating excuses were being made when in reality it wasn’t the case, it just wasn’t for my sister. Now keep in mind I mentioned I don’t believe all the products are natural and my instinct was right. The other distributor and my sister were having a conversation when all of this went down. Completely out of the blue my sister was questioned on her beliefs and stated she was a Christian. I was in shock when the woman replied “Okay, never mind I see now why you don’t want to do it.” Of course my sister was curious as to why she would say that and it was because one of the products I believe or it could be more, can cause a serious illness and as soon as I find out which one, I will definitely post another blog about it or share it on the comments to this one. Christian or not, I don’t see why any company/human being would even want to sell something that can hurt someone. I know that there are many things going around in the world that can be just as dangerous which is very unfortunate. With many things going around, why add more to the mix? I never made one sell when I joined and I didn’t keep paying to have my account running. I don’t have a passion for it, I only joined to help my sister out which didn’t really make a difference seeing as how we both started putting our interest towards what we really love to do. I love blogging, even though I fall of the grid many times. I don’t know why but I always felt that when I blog it’s not just because I want to find something random to post about but because it holds meaning to me and I feel it’s something that needs to be made known.
God Bless ❤
Promise me that whatever struggle you are facing, you won’t give up!
How many unfortunately have? How many times were you close to it? How many times was I?
What the enemy means for harm, God turns it around for good. Can you imagine how much credit the devil gives himself when he sees us breaking, it’s difficult to even fathom. Many people think that’s it, finally I’m seeing what I want to see, they’re not as strong as they think are but little do they know you serve a big God. The creator of all things, nothing is too much for him. I believe God placed many of us here to show himself through yet life happens and unfortunately at times we stray away. Look to him when times get hard and believe me when I say you will get through it. Let him speak to you, silence your mind and be open to receiving the peace that surpasses all understanding and do not lean on your own.
My mind has been on overload to the point of being speechless. I don’t know where to begin when I am trying to express myself nor do I know what it is exactly that is bothering me. I’m trying to make sense of it all but it feels as if I keep hitting a brick wall. I’ve found myself getting close to God only to begin questioning when will certain things happen and in those moments, I begin to go about my own way which I know is never good to do.
Ever since I can remember I’ve struggled to find my purpose, I know I want to make a difference but it seems at times that when we try to do good we are fought by the enemy even more. The attacks can either be mentally, emotionally, physically and even spiritually, I’m sure there are many ways. As for me it’s usually all of those four and I am exhausted but I will not stop fighting back and I will not give up. When I was young I never really held a job for long and now that I am in a different state of mind I can’t seem to find one. I see myself working, I see myself writing a book but when it doesn’t happen I wonder what does God want me to do. I know for a fact that book has been in my heart since before I was even 15, I can’t seem to get away from the thought of it and I truly do believe I’m meant for it. The only thing is that I have things I need to take care of and I know in the bible God says he will care for us we simply need to trust him. When I was younger I had an easier time actually letting things be but now it feels as if there’s urgency behind it, like I need to get it done now and the fact that it’s not happening is a little discouraging but I know that is far from what God wants. His ways are not our ways and I need to stop trying to control things or even having expectations, then how will I leave room for him to work. I pray to God to give me a clean heart heart and renew a loyal spirit within me, that is where I stand right now in my life.
The love in the light brings peace over me that I never knew. All so very new to me, can’t compare to anything. God there is no one like you who sees right through me, even in the days that I was lost you took the time to reach out. How could I have wandered so far away from your truth. All through these years I was fighting to hold on to my faith, at times I was certain I took a loss but through your great given grace you turned it around for good.