How much longer will I fall into sin?
With each time I feel convicted and yet I ask myself how much longer will I continue to be like this. I know we are all not perfect in our own different ways and I don’t think we will ever reach perfection but I do believe we have the chance to grow each and everyday. We all know right from wrong, but some may not see anything wrong with certain things that fall under sin, no judgement after all we all have to answer to God some day but I do wonder how can it be so easy for others to sin without feeling any guilt. Slowly I found myself earlier thinking a little too much to the point of questioning God. I thought to myself I’m not a bad person, I feel personally that I have a pure heart, I love him but will I really end up in hell for the sins I’ve come to commit. I try as best as I can to hold back from anything considered unholy in God’s eyes but sooner or later I not only let him down but myself as well. A couple of years ago I ordered a book online titled “She” by Morgan Harper Nichols. It is a 365 day devotional with bible verses and experiences she’s been through and what we may possibly be dealing with too. I don’t find it to be a coincidence but I simply thought to myself, pick up the book and flip to the page that falls under this date February 2nd. There was something telling me, there you will find something that helps you with your question and it’ll help you put your mind at ease. Sure enough I get up, reach towards the nightstand I have next to my bed and I open the book, here’s the bible verse it read…
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.